Thin Kiss

A crazy thing. You do not realize how much you eat in a day until you actually track it all on a calorie counter. I personally use myfitnesspal (best website ever by the way). My only issue is that I don't use it rituously. I'll "cheat" myself into believing that I didn't actually eat something if I don't track it online. Out of site, out of mind, right? Well I finally decided to face up to the facts and see why I have been creeping up in weight from 146 to 148 and nearly 150 by the end of today. I tracked today, which I normally would have considered a good day: I felt like I hadn't eaten too much, I didn't make it to the gym, but I did spend the majority of the day standing and helping to paint/remodel my kitchen. I downed more that 1500 calories today. I cannot believe that. Here I am thinking I ate around 800, maybe 1000 and its actually 1500. WTF...

Well it just goes to show you that I am going to have to work extra hard. And I seem to have pinpointed where I go wrong. In the morning, if I start off with a huge breakfast ( and by huge I mean not restrictive at all, like a "normal bowl of cereal," then I go crazy for the rest of the day. No more. I will pre track my days the night before and I will follow them to a t. Too long have I been lying to my self that I am eating less than I actually am. I will not lie. I will have control and restrict so that I can finally be at 120. My sister is taller than me. I hate to admit that but its true. It means I have to weight less than her. And I will.