Quick update -

Great day today. Totally made up for yesterday! Back on track!!!

Forgot to check in yesterday, but I did get a chance to go to the gym! I didn't today sadly, because I am car-less. Tomorrow, no excuses.

I need to make sure I weigh myself tomorrow first thing after I wake up and go to the bathroom, I need a baseline. Also, even if I don't eat much all day, I need to eat most of my cals around 5pm-6pm because that gives me enough time to burn it off at the gym around 7:30pm and if I don't eat it in the morning, I don't even notice the difference in hunger level (I'm still the same degree of hungry!).

I can do this. Prom will be awesome. Spring break is in 2.5 weeks. I will make it to 142 by then. That's easy!! Weak even, 2lbs a week is nothing!

Dree Hemingway = major thinspo

Went to the gym today but I went overboard on girl scout cookies. Devils baked goods they are...

Anyways, lost 2 lbs this week, so I need to keep it up going to the gym everyday after school. Also I need to continue to keep cals under 800.

I just have to keep telling myself that I can do this. Because I can. I have s reason. I have myself.

Just some thinpo for the day, from NYFW...
I'll update later after I get back from the gym.

Came home to a nice surprise! Weighed in at 145.8!!! I know it's just water weight but my mom did say my legs are starting to look thinner! Progress :)

I'm going to head to the gym around 7:30 today. I hate to be blunt but I go at that time because all the fat people go at that time and all the reverse thinspo is good motivation for me...

UPDATE - went to the gym, could only run 2 miles, so i had to walk the rest :( my tummy was feeling funny... other than that, pretty good day today. i think i stayed under 500!!

that said, jane from seaofshoes is the greatest semi-real girl thinspo ever!

ok day today... i didn't get to go to the gym sadly. i should probably get on the stationary bike for a little while at the very least. it's times like these when i wish i had a treadmill in my house... i got a little discouraged because valentines day means cupcakes and chocolates galore... what a way to make single girls feel soooo much better...

i will start the ABC diet tomorrow. i need to get it in my head that i need to lose 20 lbs before prom starts. preferably for spring break so that i can look good then too!! great now i need to research some hunger staving tips...

found a great little tip website - http://www.skinnygossip.com/starving-tip-of-the-day/
a little dated but helpful nonetheless.

pretty good day!! under 1000 calories and i went to gym for an hour!! i can run 3 freakin miles now so i'm planning on running a 5k soon! every runner has to start somewhere!

ps - looking for new blogs to follow. i haven't been online in a while so a lot of the old ones i used to follow are out of date. comment if you want me to follow or if you have an suggestions!

NYC be good to me

just got back from new york and i am exhausted and ready to work harder... (ppl there are gorgeous)

right now: listening to boy with a coin on repeat, really contemplating why my weight is the same as it was 1 year ago. i struggle so hard just to keep from going up, it seems like god would finally reward me and bring it down a smidge. i guess i just have to try harder...

new york fashion week is some serious thinspo...