want. need. thin,

no real progress but im freaking out because my weight is sooo close to 160. i mean, i've never been 160 before and to me that's like an obese cow. i look at myself in the mirror and i dont really look any different than when i used to be 137 but i feel it. i feel the slight gap that used to be between my legs disappearing. my goal right now is to get skinny.

I want that gap back by spring break.
I will have that gap back by spring break.
I will look at thinspo for punishment for eating.
I will be 140 or below by spring break.
I am fat, I will be thin. No - I MUST be thin.
Il faut que je sois mince.
French people are skinny not fat. I am french I must be skinny.

Haha ok well that last one was a stupid inside joke but I WILL BE SKINNY!!

well readers, stay thin, too!