i really don't know how much i love writing and blogging about my struggles until i actually sit down and do it.
today i went out to eat, it was horrible. my grandmother came and she is almost as obsessed with her weight as i am, except she's fatter. she is about 5'9" and she wants to be 154. it was devastating to me because here i am at 5'6" weighing that much and she insists on saying i am not fat. but you know what, she basically just called me fat right there, and unintentionally.
i know i can do it. starting tomorrow i am going on a short trip so i will try and control and restrict then. that always seems to work. i'm scared because i am on the verge of 158 right now.
sorry thinforever, i kinda bailed out on the comp but i think i'll do this in my mental state for a little. just until i get back on my feet.
thanks to all for the support, ruby, your comment seemed to help me write this today :)
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it is okay darling! =) dont think of it as bailing! that sounds bad.
ReplyDeletedo what you need to do to take care of you, and thats all that matters =) just get back up and lets do this now. you will get there i promise <3
hello sunshine - you CAN do it! I know you can. You have the desire in yourself and support from us. Let us know how today goes, ok? xxx
ReplyDeletegood luck with the trip :) i'm sure you can do it. Just keep your goal in your mind. Keep picturing what you'll look like when you reach that dream weight. You can do it :)
ReplyDeletegood luck with the trip, you can do it hun xx
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