green with envy

i don't know why i am so unhappy. - wait actually i do. it's because i have a horrible weight problem and i am so fat and my friends don't like hanging out with me b/c i am boring and/or annoying and i don't have a boyfriend. i seriously will never be socially accepted unless i am skinny. that is a living breathing fatblubbering fact.

well i woke up today and i ate cereal as usual to increase metabolism. and i weighed myself... 149.0. not too bad but that is always what happens during the school week. i lose about 2lbs and then i gain it all back because i don't do much on the weekends and because i eat more.

well the reason behind the title of this blog is because i am so envious of my best friend. she has everything going for her. she's so smart and soooo pretty. i'm not surprised that all the guys in the school chase after her. thats not even the worst part. the worst part is that she thinks she's chunky too. ugh... it just makes me feel even fatter becuase next to her... i am just the pretty girl's fat best friend.

ps: i am not feeling sick anymore... but i am still enormous and ill probably eat 700 calories today :(