i ate so many grapes today its crazy.
i can't believe myself.
but i am still fat. i haven't lost anything since that last two weeks where i fasted. i love fasting and yet i hate it at the same time. i love being hungry but i love to taste food too. my life is the biggest paradox in the universe it seems at times. i just want to be as skinny as my sis (we'll call her T from now on) by the end of school. how about my new goal be 130lbs by finals week. that is doable. and it is still fat but at least i wont be 150lbs...
About Me
- ThinKiss ♥
- I'm just a girl with a blog. I am not ana, but i consider myself to be obsessed with my own weight and personal goals. I admit that i am a disordered eater but i don't have an eating disorder. I hate my body and i plan to change that. I don't think that bones and emaciation are beautiful; i think earning the right to be described as skinny by other people is heaven. This is just a way for me to track my progress, express my feelings, maybe post a little thinspo, and my current musings and findings.
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